Soulful Greetings,
It’s a glorious morning to watch the new day begin by the ocean. The sky is streaked in muted then vivid shades of yellow gold, tangerine orange and rose pink and as the sun slowly rises so does the vibrancy of it’s appearance. It is illuminating and energizing to my body, mind and soul as I alternate between sitting on the steps of our dock by the sea with pacing back and forth with excitement as I observe the beauty unfolding before me. I am an observer and a participant in this experience.
Before I realize it, thirty minutes of pure bliss has transpired as this intense energy surges across the ocean to where I am and uplifts my spirits, causing my heart to race until I am giddy with excitement at the natural beauty of this ever-changing array of patterns as the sun brilliantly rises above the horizon into the pale blue sky.
It is stunning to be a part of this beauty as a new day begins. Viewing this sunrise is similar to watching a fireworks display, it is awe-inspiring. The brisk winds and the cool temps in the mid 60’s add to the excitement provided by nature and the blessings of the universe. The feeling of increased joy from this experience has stayed with me along with the knowledge that I will not only survive but thrive in the aftermath of life’s most challenging situations providing I allow myself to live in the moment with mindfulness and an open heart.
I almost stayed in bed this morning after my husband, Bob looked over and stated, “Go back to sleep, it’s only 4:30 AM.” As I lay there looking around the room I knew it couldn’t be that time. The sky was brightening up and light was shining through our bedroom window. When I mentioned that fact to him, we both leaped out of bed and walked into the kitchen to check the clock on the stove which read 6:45 A.M.
Still too early for him to fully awake on a Saturday morning he closed the bedroom door behind him as I raced out our backdoor toward the ocean with the excitement of a child on Christmas morning. I didn’t take the time to make a cup of coffee as I do many mornings to sit by the sea, but with camera in hand I was ready to take in the colorful sky transforming in front of me.
It has been a very difficult and emotional nine months since the passing of my daughter who suddenly joined her older sister in the afterlife. My reality subsequently had many mornings filled with despair, tears and sadness that would permeate my days into evenings, nights and mornings again. My energy was flat and life seemed empty and dull without her in it. I didn’t know if I would ever experience joy again, it seemed impossible to imagine life without her larger-than-life presence.
As the days went by, I struggled with the quietness of my life without her buoyant personality to enliven my days. Granted it wasn’t all a smooth and happy ride. Her life was very rocky and my husband and I were always on call to console, consult, encourage, support, empower, cheer on, rescue or do whatever was necessary to assist her to keep moving forward.
There were so many new beginnings, many of which were short lived for her but our desire to see her through each one was un-wavering. My mind and heart are still adjusting to the new life without her physically here, but I feel her presence around us and hear her communication with me providing more confirmation about life after death and about a soul’s journey home.
Blessings,
Nancy
